The Perfect Sister

So, my sister visited for the weekend again with her boyfriend, Angel.

Her frequent visits are not only due to her homesickness after packing her bags and leaving to go live with her lover after only dating him for 5 months, but also due to the undesirable habitat she resides in:

A 2 bedroom apartment in the Bronx.

So you're thinking "that's not too bad". But it really is. Angel and herself live there, along with his mother, stepfather, and his 2 grandparents (who have to sleep on the pull-out couch). I can tell you one thing, you won't catch me doing that. I imagine she has no privacy whatsoever.

Angel seems okay, but I honestly wish she would dump him and come back home. I miss her terribly. Even though we're nothing alike, my sister and I are very close. I feel like she understands me more than anyone else in my family, and it's very easy for me to talk to her.

Yes, she's constantly getting into trouble. Yes, she's dating a new guy every 2 seconds. Yes, she's now 22 and still hasn't completed even 2 years worth of college. But none of that matters. In fact, I probably wouldn't enjoy her as much if she was the same, boring old goody-goody like me. Plus, if she was, I wouldn't have learned anything from her. I actually only turned out this way because I learned from her many mistakes. And by "this way" I mean a good student who doesn't get into mischief. Unfortunately, it's made my parents overly proud of me and unappreciative of Francesca.

She actually deserves all the credit. She's the best sister I could ask for.

Everybody do your best. Get 100 on your test!

I saw my report card today and proceeded to tear it up and throw it in the trash can. Then I went on a rampage. I cursed at my economics teacher using every foul word at my disposal, stomped on the floor, and knocked things off the dining room table.
Shortly after I realized that there was something wrong with me. I was acting like a psychopath over grades that most people would kill for.
My main concern right now is college, and if I find out in April that I got into my top school, that horrible display I put on would have been completely unnecessary. The only reason I'm concerned about my grades is because I fear Columbia will look at them and say "Nope, not good enough" and discard my application in the reject pile.
But I'm going to try and not think about all that. I'm trying my best to not stress myself out this year. If I can make it for just 1 and a half more months, I'll be home free. Wish me luck :)

Sorrowing, Sighing, Bleeding, Dying

So, I have some interesting things to report.

I went to a wake on Monday night. It was actually my first time going to a wake since I was 8 and I went to my grandma's. I have to admit, I didn't like it at all. All the depressed people, the open casket showing the cancer victim, it's just not for me. I knew the dead woman's brother, and that is why I was there. I don't know why, but I started to cry myself. It wasn't as a courtesy to the mourners. The tears came very naturally. I'm very disturbed by death, especially when it happens so tragically. She was only 60. She should of had many more years to look forward to. But lung cancer is extremely deathly and once you get it, it's pretty much sayonara.

I gave blood today! It was very exciting and made me feel good about myself. After I was done, I passed out and I had to wait about 2 hours until they would let me leave. My dad was very angry at me for some reason. I honestly can't figure out why.

February Air

I finally found my "chicken soup with rice" book! Enjoy this excerpt:

"In February it will be
my snowman's anniversary
with cake for him and soup for me!
Happy once
Happy twice
Happy chicken soup with rice"

I don't know what it is about that book that tickles me so. I suppose because it's so reminiscent of my childhood. A friend and I were just discussing the books we read when we were young the other day. It's strange how after all these years I think I love those children's books even more than I did when I was a child. Things were a lot simpler then, and since now my life is anything but simple, it's nice to have something to remind me of the days that are long gone.

Advanced Placement Economics

Yeah, I'm dropping it. Why? There are several reasons:
1) the teacher is an ass
2) I hate the subject
3) I have a crappy grade

I feel horrible about this; I've never dropped a class before. But whatever. It's senior year, right? I don't need unnecessary stress. I'd rather enjoy my last semester in high school than suffer through it.

I had a chat with a Cornell alumni last night. Maybe that's a good sign. I hope they aren't disappointed with what a shitty student I've become. But if they don't accept me, I can always stay home and write poetry.

~Photosynthesis~
I planted a tree, and it started to grow
But despite my great joy and happiness,
How was it growing? I just didn't know
Till I learned about photosynthesis.
This process occurs in most types of plants
And is something humans simply can't do.
Not your mother or father or uncle or aunt
Or your cousin who lives in Peru
Plants do not require food that is premade
The conditions just have to be right.
Rain pouring down in a brilliant cascade
And the sun beaming with all of its might
Light will provide the energy source
But there still is one more thing that they need
Carbon Dioxide released by us, of course
So that they can properly feed
Carbohydrates will be created
But more importantly they will release
Oxygen which is highly related
In ensuring that we're not deceased
So be grateful for photosynthesis
And plants both big and small
Not only are they beautiful and green
But without them, we wouldn't be here at all

haha, I wrote that for biology. It will be published one day, I'm very sure of that.